Lessons, Struggles, and Progress

Lessons, Struggles, and Progress

8/24/25 5:10 PM

 As the first quarter ends, I've encountered many lessons-both academically and morally, I can't say that I've understood everything that I heard. I also saw my flaws and mistakes-many mistakes, It seems that me failing to improve is inevitable and that I'll always be apathetic or resistant to change-or maybe I was just idle and that I didn't try hard enough.

I learned quite alot this quarter, just didn't make any space in my brain-so they just dissipated haha, but seriously I actually learned alot especially in Science, English, I.C.T and even Research-learned things that I can actually apply in real life and even in this subjects I gained moral knowledge whenever we get lectured by our teacher. I can't word out everything that they said but when something similar i see or hear, it'll immediately spark up my mind and I'll remember what they said. Still all of our subjects taught us the same things that they always say and it's that we should never be too lax. 

And they're not wrong-to some, because there are students who are stern to academics-but me? Of course not, it's one of my problems actually and procrastination. I never actually became serious in my requirements, I always say "eh I can do it tomorrow" or "this is okay, atleast I'm not getting a zero point" and "I'm too tired, this is enough". I never actually reached higher than what I can do, I can't improve my self or atleast that's what I think or what I've been doing.

I never dealt with the problems that I jotted down, never really cared for it-what I do didn't really matter, I witnessed myself degrade as each day goes by. Never did something to prevent myself from being me, my cycle was bound to happen, maybe because I'm not so close to God anymore that I'm so weak. What happened didn't matter to me but it does matter, what I do now reflects my future.

Moving on, I guess I'll try change my habits, my way of thinking and my overall character. This time I'll really put in effort, I'll try to reach as high as I can maybe even higher than the ones that I look up to but let's not get cocky hehe. I'll try and try until the end of this School Year.